De senaste fem \u00e5ren har jag tillbringat dagarna p\u00e5 en terminal bland dagstidningar, paket och kollegor som \u00e4ven de m\u00e5ste undra vad jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med. En v\u00e4n till mig, som ocks\u00e5 jobbade p\u00e5 terminal, sa en g\u00e5ng att det k\u00e4nns som om hj\u00e4rnan l\u00e5ngsamt sm\u00e4lter. Nu om inte f\u00f6rr fattar jag hur han menar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Under tiden har jag emellertid sparat ihop en del pengar. I ljuset av allt annat som kommit in i mitt liv under de h\u00e4r \u00e5ren \u2013 barn, villa, tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rd \u2013 \u00e4r det inte s\u00e5 illa. Jag skulle f\u00f6rmodligen ha r\u00e5d att ta mig igenom de tv\u00e5 \u00e5ren p\u00e5 masterniv\u00e5 som studiemedlet inte r\u00e4ckte till. Sedan skulle jag kunna doktorera \u2013 om jag visste i vilket \u00e4mne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jag skulle vilja beskriva min akademiska bana f\u00f6r vad den var: slingrig, inspirerande, frustrerande. Jag skulle ocks\u00e5 vilja f\u00f6rklara varf\u00f6r den slutade i ingenting, om det inte bara visar sig ha varit en l\u00e5ng, rastl\u00f6s paus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Den amerikanska psykologen Elaine Aron, vars bok Den h\u00f6gk\u00e4nsliga m\u00e4nniskan<\/em> har blivit en tr\u00f6st f\u00f6r mig, hade ocks\u00e5 gett upp karri\u00e4ren innan hon fann v\u00e4gen tillbaka. Med det i \u00e5tanke \u00e4r ingenting f\u00f6r sent, allraminst f\u00f6r h\u00f6gk\u00e4nsliga.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Jag avslutar kv\u00e4llen med n\u00e5gra sidor i Det fallna imperiet<\/em> av Martin Kragh, en bok som jag kan f\u00e5 anledning att \u00e5terkomma till.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" De senaste fem \u00e5ren har jag tillbringat dagarna p\u00e5 en terminal bland dagstidningar, paket och kollegor som \u00e4ven de m\u00e5ste undra vad jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med. En v\u00e4n till mig, som ocks\u00e5 jobbade p\u00e5 terminal, sa en g\u00e5ng att det k\u00e4nns som om hj\u00e4rnan l\u00e5ngsamt sm\u00e4lter. Nu om inte f\u00f6rr fattar jag hur han menar. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":42965754,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_coblocks_attr":"","_coblocks_dimensions":"","_coblocks_responsive_height":"","_coblocks_accordion_ie_support":"","advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_seo_schema_type":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_wpcom_ai_launchpad_first_post":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[29718,41061],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3251","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-bocker","category-personligt"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4saXQ-Qr","jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3251","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/42965754"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3251"}],"version-history":[{"count":25,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3251\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3305,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3251\/revisions\/3305"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3251"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3251"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3251"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}