{"id":5728,"date":"2026-01-19T23:27:34","date_gmt":"2026-01-19T22:27:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/uttryck.net\/?p=5728"},"modified":"2026-01-19T23:27:34","modified_gmt":"2026-01-19T22:27:34","slug":"rakna-de-lyckliga-stunderna-blatt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/?p=5728","title":{"rendered":"R\u00e4kna de lyckliga stunderna bl\u00e5tt"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Mynningen till Tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rdsgatan i Lund, med lite extra liv och f\u00e4rg av Open AI. Jag kastar ofta en blick in p\u00e5 gatan n\u00e4r jag k\u00f6r f\u00f6rbi och undrar vilken tornprydd byggnad det \u00e4r som skymtar l\u00e4ngre bort. (Den ser annorlunda ut i verkligheten.)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Jag mindes pl\u00f6tsligt n\u00e4r jag gjorde Stroop-testet som tjugo\u00e5ring p\u00e5 en grundkurs i psykologi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag klarade n\u00e4stan felfritt att l\u00e4sa upp f\u00e4rgerna p\u00e5 textremsorna i st\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att l\u00e4sa sj\u00e4lva orden: gul<\/mark>, gr\u00f6n<\/mark>, r\u00f6d<\/mark>, orange.<\/mark> Det var en av f\u00e5 g\u00e5nger d\u00e5 jag k\u00e4nde mig tillr\u00e4cklig den h\u00f6sten f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga \u00e5r sedan. Jag var bara h\u00e4lften s\u00e5 gammal som nu men trodde mig veta att jag var neurotisk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I dag vet jag att d\u00e5liga f\u00f6ruts\u00e4ttningar kan g\u00f6ra vilken idiot som helst neurotisk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tankarna spann vidare kring \u00e4mnet och hur man skulle kunna dokumentera sin sinnesst\u00e4mning genom att anteckna sina k\u00e4nslor i olika f\u00e4rger under en tid i sitt liv. Det har nog redan gjorts, n\u00e4r jag t\u00e4nker n\u00e4rmare p\u00e5 saken.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag t\u00e4nker ocks\u00e5 h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n s\u00e4ngen att mitt liv i dag \u00e4r s\u00e5 mycket b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n f\u00f6r tjugo \u00e5r sedan och att det fanns stunder p\u00e5 den tiden d\u00e5 jag trodde att det aldrig skulle ordna sig. Visst har jag fastnat i ett ekorrhjul och visst \u00e4r det l\u00e5ngt kvar till friheten, men jag ser \u00e5tminstone v\u00e4gen d\u00e4r jag g\u00e5r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tangentbordet manar till l\u00e4ngre texter \u00e4n vad jag orkar skriva. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r \u00e4r mobiltelefonen b\u00e4ttre f\u00f6r mig h\u00e4r och nu. Tankarna hinner landa i orden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag hann ocks\u00e5 t\u00e4nda ett ljus p\u00e5 mitt rum i kv\u00e4ll, det enda rum som jag har makt \u00f6ver, som inte \u00e4r kaos. Det kommer att bli b\u00e4ttre p\u00e5 den fronten ocks\u00e5, av sk\u00e4l som jag inte kan n\u00e4mna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu m\u00e5ste jag verkligen sova. Godnatt, jord.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag mindes pl\u00f6tsligt n\u00e4r jag gjorde Stroop-testet som tjugo\u00e5ring p\u00e5 en grundkurs i psykologi. Jag klarade n\u00e4stan felfritt att l\u00e4sa upp f\u00e4rgerna p\u00e5 textremsorna i st\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att l\u00e4sa sj\u00e4lva orden: gul, gr\u00f6n, r\u00f6d, orange. Det var en av f\u00e5 g\u00e5nger d\u00e5 jag k\u00e4nde mig tillr\u00e4cklig den h\u00f6sten f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga \u00e5r sedan. Jag var bara […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":42965754,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_coblocks_attr":"","_coblocks_dimensions":"","_coblocks_responsive_height":"","_coblocks_accordion_ie_support":"","advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_seo_schema_type":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_wpcom_ai_launchpad_first_post":false,"_jetpack_hide_featured_image":false,"_jetpack_featured_image_duplicate_dismissed":0,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"R\u00e4kna de lyckliga stunderna bl\u00e5tt","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[29818,36671],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5728","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-psykologi","category-vardag"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4saXQ-1uo","jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5728","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/42965754"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5728"}],"version-history":[{"count":18,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5728\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5747,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5728\/revisions\/5747"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5728"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5728"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/uttryck.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5728"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}